The Conversation

so like... my friends? Yeah, they know. It's not a big deal with them, whatever. But my parents? Oh god. It's like this huge, terrifying thing hanging over my head. Every time I'm around them, I feel this knot in my stomach. It's like I'm living this whole secret life, and the real me? I have to just... shove her down. Hide her away. And the thought... the actual thought of them finding out? It makes me feel sick. Like they wouldn't even want me anymore. Like all the love, everything we've ever had, would just... disappear. Vanish. They'd look at me like I'm some kind of monster, you know? And the idea of that... of them just... disowning me? It's like this constant fear in the back of my mind. It feels so real, so heavy. It's not just, like, a little disappointment. It's the fear of losing my whole family. The people who are supposed to love you no matter what? What if they just... don't? It's honestly terrifying. It keeps me up at night. It's like this huge weight I can't ever put down.