The Conversation

It's so unfair how some people get born into families with healthy relationships and dynamics, and healthy ways to cope with things and just happy lives in general, and then others just get born into different degrees of shittiness. I hate that I can't fully blame anyone, that my parents had abusive or dysfunctional families themselves, and that they pass it down to us, their kids. But I can't blame them for shit because they're trying, I know they're trying and it hurts to see them struggle so much. But then also, theyve made us struggle. They've given me so many complexes and mental issues. And they don't even know it. I hate how complicated everything has to be and the fact that no matter how hard I try to be positive and all that bullcrap, I always end up feeling shit. And when I do, there's no one there. There's no one that'll be there for me and make me feel better. I hate how selfish I feel writing this.