The Conversation

It's Pride Month!! The month where everyone gets to celebrate who they are!!!! ......I don't deserve to have that. I'm not real. I'm not really genderfluid. I'm just a faker. I'm not actually bi. I just have trauma. I don't deserve to call myself something that I'm not. My mom hates the fact that I am anything but cis or straight, she's so horribly Christian and straight. She's such a good mom but-- according to her, my identity is nothing but a phase, and fuck if I don't believe her. I have so much trouble even convincing myself that I'm valid that it's so damn hard to convince her. I have to go to church where everyone hates "the gays" because it's a sin to like anyone other than men and I was put in this body for a reason. I'm just going through a phase, I'm a girl and always have been and always will be, because I don't know what being a boy feels like, according to my stepdad. I'm above such things. Why does this hurt so fucking much? I just want to be normal. God, I just want