The Conversation

Nothing I do is ever good enough for her my dog has been coughing and hacking all goddamn day and I couldnt find out why so I figured she needed to drink water due to the heat we dont have air conditioning Ive been up since 8pm last night and by 12pm in the afternoon three hours ago I felt so exhausted I couldnt keep my eyes open after watching her from 4am to then I figured since she was sleeping right fucking next to me that it would be fine if I slept Turns out she threw up when I was asleep and woke up to my mom screaming in my fucking ear about how Im so lazy and that I dont give a fuck about her I dont put up with my paranoia surrounding her every day my anxiety my depression or even my fucking episodes where I think shes gonna die if she breathes wrong just for my mom to tell me I dont care I care more about my baby more than I can put into words and my exhaustion would never change that But Im just not good enough for her because I thought I could take a nap three hours before shed get home knowing my dog can sleep five hours at a time But Im the dipshit right Im so fucking sick of getting ridiculed over every single thing I do no fucking wonder Im so paranoid about everything if she wont even let me function like a human being without accusing me of shit Yet she wonders why Im so fucked in the head