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I am fat, not super fat but a good 1oolbs over where i should be. I started losing some weight and I was doing good. I quit eating and drinking sugar.. I was losing. I was doing good. Then I too a vacation to see family and I gained it back by being around their influence ( they have desserts with every meal and snack on food all day). I so mad at my self. When I got back home I kept the bad habit and ate and drank so many calories. Gained several pounds back. Im just mad at my self. I was making progress and then I just undid it all. I want to cry and starve my self. Im tired of being fat and over weight. I hurt all the time nearly! Like all the time.. I just hate my self.