The Conversation

i finally found something that made me feel good about myself… and now i can’t do it anymore. the gym was helping. i was lifting, running, actually liking my body for once. then my back fucked up. turns out it’s some disc thing i was apparently born with. doctor says no more lifting. no more running. maybe go swim instead?? like great, take the one thing that helped me and replace it with something i hate. i’m 23 and i feel like an old lady. i’m just mad. mad and sad and tired of my body working against me. and everyone’s like “yeah that sucks but nothing you can do!” like yeah. i know. that’s the worst part.