The Conversation

I have a friend, best friend actually, that has recently come out and told me that she’s been feeling depressed a lot. At first I thought that our feelings would be the same, but hers are a bit more worse. Today she said that she was feeling really nervous about kids at school and how she thought that they didn’t like her. I proceeded to tell her about how a lot of people love her, including me, so she doesn’t have to worry that much. She only repsonded with okay. I told her that I loved her again and she said “yeah ok”. It hurts that she doesn’t think I love her. I care about her more than any other person in the world. She’s my everything. I’d do anything to make her understand that I love her. Even a little in an “im gay for you” way. Like if she didn’t have a girlfriend, I would probably kiss her kind of way. And it hurts that she doesn’t think I care for her, or that anyone does. I just wish that she understood that people really care about her. I really care about her. I don’t understand why people wouldn’t. She’s funny, super smart, a little bit shy, and one of the most beautiful girls I’ve ever seen in my life. There’s nothing that people could hate her for. Why can’t she see what I see? If I could, I would take away her pain and suffer if instead. I don’t care what happens to me. I wish that she could see that she’s loved.