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How do i tell my friends and classmate i was absent because i was there for my mom who
was deeply sick, im not comfy saying the exact reason why was i absent at class
i keep fucking up my life over and over and i don’t even know why i do it. i get attached way too fast, way too deep and then i end up doing stupid shit just to feel like i matter to someone and it just blows up in my face every time. makes me feel smaller, emptier, like there’s nothing left of me.
yeah i got people around me, family, friends, whatever. but i still feel alone as hell. family doesn’t even feel like family. friends always drift off, act like everything’s fine while i’m falling apart. and then there’s me, stuck with me, and i hate the hell out of myself.
sometimes i think about just ending it, disappearing into nothing where none of this shit matters anymore. but life doesn’t work like that. guess we don’t get what we want.
-2 My dad on the other hand. Today, while me and brother was eating pork/ beef (which we know has tons of small bones", my dad said, "Mi!(calling to mom) whys john(not real name, bro) food has a lot of small bones on his meal, he repeated this 2x. I mumble " ofcouse there will be a lot of small bone--- then my dad replied" what did u say?!" " i said ofcouse there will be a lot of small bone, mom can't remove everything on bros platter, thats why we need to becarefuland he asnwered realy?! intone
For the past few days, my parents became different towards me, like i was doing something illegal my whole life. Don't get we wrong, i love them, they are my best friends. I can't live without them. Yesterday i got some scolding over my attitude towards them, that i was being bratty and raising my voice over them. First of all, i wouldn't do that intentionally, i thought my mom was joking like everytime she says " are u sure??" i answer a louder yuh to her every time she says that. My dad on- 1
