What would you say if nobody knew it was you?

. I've stopped cutting myself and I cant eat and sleep properly, I keep having weird dreams about my dead aunt. She said that she will come for me and take me with her, I wish that was true but it was all a dream. I've never felt this down before in my entire life, I feel like at any point of writing this my body is going to shatter into millions of pieces. I miss her and myself.

fuck you. we were supposed to be friends. you said we could only be friends then backed out because your jealous new gf didn’t like it. so we stopped. years later i try to reach out again and at first you act cool, you even say it was all your fault. then suddenly you twist it, pull the rug, and it’s like nothing ever changed. you crushed me twice

i’m just done. i feel fat and ugly as hell and i honestly don’t know how much more of this i can take. can’t say it to my friends cuz they wouldn’t get it, so here it is.

why am i so stupid? i’ve been friends with this girl for like 8 years (im 13) and she’s been a jerk forever but i keep crawling back. last time she threw a baseball at me and when i complained she called me a baby. then when i threw it to her and she caught it barehanded she started crying. she calls me weak but does the same shit herself. i don’t know why i put up with it.

i’ve got insecurities about my body same as everyone else but mine never left. ppl used to make comments back in the day, even so called “friends.” now nobody says much but it still runs in my head every single day. today someone i know dropped a line about me right in front of others and i wanted to sink into the floor. i turned away blushing like a fool pretending it didn’t matter. but it did.

i honestly fucking hate people. like i shoulda learned my lesson by now but nope i keep letting people in. only person you can trust is yourself and even that feels shaky sometimes. i just want one damn person who will actually understand me and not just nod. and now i went and caught feelings for the worst guy i possibly could given everything going on. feels like i want it all to just end sometimes.

A coworker discovered using Vibe Coding last week, and has bragged/used an excuse in literally every meeting since then how he wasn't able to pay attention to what everyone else was doing because he was busy using AI to do twice his normal work (while working 16 hour days), and we should all be using AI to double our productivity too, and all the bugs that he's fixing this week are just minor things, and the AI is great, and we all need to just pass off our work to it, so we beat our schedule.

Why do I have to constantly remind people I exist for them to act like they care? I'm not clingy, I'm just exhausted from pretending silence is normal.

man, im so damn tired these days. friends dont feel like one anymore, i feel useless, and my mom keeps getting mad everytime i rest. she say stuff like how i have no use in this household and how i have it much easier like damn im just tryna rest here, like, ill be useful when im properly rested. and i cant even eat without feeling like a rat bro even the smallest bit of food make me feel bad about myself, ive been clean for a month and this situation made me wanna do tht sh.t again.

nah week 2 half the team broke bones coach call plays like he drunk refs blind as bats dont even see the holdin right in front of em and fans man yall flip flop so fast one week we gods next week its burn the stadium down sell the whole roster bruh pick a lane dont even talk bout ticket prices 200 bucks just to sit in the nosebleed section where i need a telescope to see the ball and 15 bucks for a beer that taste like piss?? nah miss me with that and then season come down to one kicker missing a 30 yard chip shot bro whole season down the drain cuz some dude can’t kick straight i hate it and still i watch every damn sunday like a clown screaming at the tv like its gonna change anything