Something bothering you? Let it out.

so please bare with my grammar. so ive been feeling severely insecure about many things. before i was just chill and i dont even care much of how i look like. but `when my bf confesses to me that he likes our cm(ye fck). i knew it at first i open things up to him with his wandering eyes but he told me i was delusional. when it happened he promised that he will change but i dont feel it and i just feel worst and worst in our rs. but i cant leave, i gave everything to him. i cant let go. help:

This past week has been a complete drain on me lately. Late nights paired with early mornings has my room and my mind looking like a complete sty, It feels like I can barely keep up and I really don't want to keep doing this shit day in and day out. I know my problems must be nothing to someone else but it feels real to me. I'm really not sure how much more I can take without a break.

I really want to quit my job. I work at an airport and 90% of the passengers and employees act like they don’t see me pushing a literal WHEELCHAIR and get RIGHT in the way. But the real problem is the commute. I spend about 18 hours a week on commuting alone (approx. 3 1/2 - 4 hours a day going and coming combined). I’m completely over it but I heard the job market is terrible. Plus the tips really help me out. I’m grateful, but I’m burnt out.

I should have told my mother to fuck off when she wanted to move my little brother into my house.
He's broken a whole fucking toilet drunk when he fell. Flooded my hallway, brought bedbugs and cockroaches.
And weighs 450 and getting bigger.
Eats everything.
I wish he would die. Fucking piece of shit.

I'm losing my house, and his room was suppose to be my fucking sons room
2019- till now I hate this kid.
I told him this, he said you can't hate family. He's so fucking stupid. Fuck him

It’s so hard to work on my attitude when everybody is fucking annoying and ignorant. I really don’t see how innocent people are dying but all the annoying, dumb, idiotic, loud, and rude people are STILL HERE 🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️

i'm gonna kill myself. i try so hard to make myself study more but touching anything related to university makes my stomach hurt so much and makes me panic. the voices in my head are just telling me to kill myself, all i think about is suicide, i used to be able to enjoy my free time and the panic was only present when i was at uni or doing uni work from home BUT NOW it's all the time, why...

I'm sick and tired of being a perfectionist, especially as an artist. I always work so slow and feel worthless if I don't make it the way it wants to be. I especially fucking hate when in art class I have to replicate some stupid shit. We're currently doing our hands holding an object of our choice, and my art teacher said that manufactured items have to look identical to the real thing. What's worse is that I brought 3 objects so ***I*** could choose which one I liked the most in the picture, but without fucking communicating, SHE FUCKING PICKED ONE FOR ME. AND IT WAS THE HARDEST ONE TOO (the object was an SMG3 Animatez if you're curious). WHAT'S WORSE IS THAT I MISSED 4 DAYS OF SCHOOL DUE TO BEING SICK, AND I'M BEHIND AS HELL.
I feel fucking worthless because I can't draw it right. I fucking hate the feeling of failure, especially after last year in school (currently a Junior in high school BTW, so this is Sophomore year) where my mental health slipped to an all time low and I failed or almost failed a lot of my classes out of stress. Hell, I almost committed LITERAL FUCKING SUICIDE and SH'd myself because of how bad it was. But guess what? MY SCHOOL BARELY FUCKING CARED. And any time I spoke out about how I felt, I was sent to the counselor's office where they'd basically do jack shit except pull me out of class to ask me about it, and then sweep it under the rug afterwards. Now due to that horrible ass year, my fear of failure has fucking spiked to its limit. I used to look forward to art class, but now I currently fucking dread it. I want to go ask my counselor about switching to a different class for now and then returning to Drawing and Painting 2 for semester 2. I know they're going to say no, so I'm trapped at this point. There's nowhere else for me to run or hide.

I want to give up. I want to drop out, but society won't let me. Without a high school diploma, I can't do what I want, which is eventually working for an indie studio as some kind of artist. I'm nothing without a high school diploma.
At this point, I just want to roll up and die.

(This is gonna be really serious then some things others have said )

My online friend (I originally met them at school but they moved) told me a few days ago that they went to their school counselor and the police were called. I asked them what they said for that to happen and they said that they told the counselor they almost committed suicide. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say or do because they dismissed it like it was nothing. I feel so.. uncomfortable texting them now.

Im so tired and overwhelmed with everything right now. I wish something terrible would happen to me so I can have a reason to not have to do anything for a good while. Like maybe a severe car accident, but not fatal. I dont want to die, I just want to be able to breathe for a second. Things should be going well right now, but I'm so stressed that I cant enjoy anything. I hate my job, I hate my friends, I just want to go to sleep and not wake up for a few months

di ba pwedeng gawan ng paraan ma? kasi ako gustong gusto ko makapag aral mn lng kagaya ng iba ehh.. ginawa ko namn lahat diba pero bakit ganon bakit parang ang dali² mo lng sabihin na ganon, ganyan i mean di ba pwedeng gawan mn lang ng ibang paraan? kasi pagud na pagud nako kaka assume sa mga sinasabi mo na ganon ganyan tapos pag andyan na bigla ka na lng mag decide na wag muna nak kasi ganito, ganyan. Di ako nag rereklamo pero bat ganon, bat feeling nyu na madali lng sakin na tanggapin lahat?