Got a bone to pick? Throw it at the wall.

and you people don't give a fuck about a flying thing until it's too fucking late, and you wonder why we have so many fucking problems in the world? Really? Shit isn't a fucking mystery. Though you'll be confused because that's your default state of mind. Always fucking confused as if it's something to be proud of.

and I won't just "go to a different restaurant" to appease others either. It's not my problem you don't want to see reality for what it is or you don't like your reflection. Get off your fucking high horse and meds and see reality for what it is instead of the sunshine and roses you see all around you.

Many of you had opportunity handed to you and want to pretend you worked for it. Your advice falls flat because you haven't experienced shit though. Frankly, I'm sick of hearing and seeing it.

"It was overwhelming". and what, your bullshit isn't? social isolation directly caused by you people that you people happily defend isn't? That shit is somehow perfectly acceptable? All the bullshit comments you make about how shit will just magically work out or all I need to do is somehow work even harder when I'm in a very small group as is due to what I've pulled off.

Yeah, fuck all of you. Sounds like you had to look in the mirror and didn't like it. Good. Fuck you.

and delete my shit again it won't make a difference. My first uni tried to use me to promote their adult education program because I came in with a GED. Then they wanted to kick me out due to "behavioral problems" like this. I ended up graduating from a different university out of state.

The message is going to persist in spite of you if necessary. There are people who base everything around convenience that need to be inconvenienced for once in their lives.

The only difference for you people between why someone needs to keep their nose in the books and their body in the gym or it's okay they endlessly eat double quarter pounders and couldn't get on a ride at an amusement park is gender. Somehow that's equality. Bullshit.

Shits gonna lead to obvious conclusions and people seeking permanent solutions for permanent problems. They won't always be convenient for you because life isn't always convenient. Fuck you

Wanna act like life is some Avril Lavigne song and all I need to do is continuously work on myself for eternity so that some people with hypocritical ideologies can more easily sleep at night when things magically work out. Shits fucking unrealistic and delusional. They belong in a fucking mental hospital.

Life isn't a fucking joke and sorry isn't a magical word. Pull your fucking heads out your fucking asses.

And lastly why the hell should I only focus on happy shit? To make shit easier for you? Why the fuck should I need to carry this burden for your convenience? How the fuck is that equitable or fair or appropriate? It sure as hell wouldn't be if the roles were reversed. That's the point though isn't it? Life needs to be easy for you, not me. I need to suffer consequences whether or not they're fair, and you need to be insulated from them. The fuck is wrong with you people?

People out here really try to pretend they care about suicide and socioeconomics isn't ever something people think about. That's why growing up a poor nish nish or niiji as they kids like to say really fucked me up. Because girls don't care. People don't care. It's all my fucking fault. Like always.

And now I can finally fix what I fucked up apparently, but you're gonna pretend to give a fuck. If you had before this point we wouldn't be here. There's a lot of shit in life "sorry" doesn't fix.

I MISS MY EX, IF THE TIME IS RIGHT I HOPE WE WILL COMEBACK

nobody shood expect to really know why those things were done to our presdent