What is something you wish would disappear?

Really feeling like I've made the best decision to be transactional with society and have it on my terms, not theirs. Examples, All these UN members thinking recognizing Palestine will do a goddamn fuck when the superpower US is behind Israel. Uniform cessation of weapon delivery would do that better. Kirk has divided white and black Evangelicals because of his disparaging against them, and people looking more forward to this shutdown than I am because Trump is in office.

I know it's just a brief reprieve but it's a relief after all that's happened. Thank you for the reprieve. It's appreciated.

Here I am, grieving something that never was. Maybe I should just end it all.

i hate how everything feels fake now. like nothin’s real unless it’s posted or liked or reacted to. people don’t even talk anymore, they just wait for their turn to say somethin better or sound cool. it’s all flexing. all performin. i miss when you could just be without thinkin about how it looks. without wonderin who’s watchin or judgin or tryna outdo you. i’m sick of pretendin it doesn’t bug me. like i don’t see how fake it all is. people bein friends when it benefits them. checkin in just enough to not feel guilty. it’s shallow. it’s all just surface. i want somethin real. even if it’s messy or hard or uncomfortable. i just want real again.

Imagine a jenga tower. Several pieces were already removed. One jenga piece has become the primary support for the majority of the jenga tower. There are some pieces on the edges in a precarious position that need support. You could move the primary supporting jenga piece to shore up those pieces. The problem is if you do, the whole jenga tower is almost guaranteed to come tumbling down. You really can't risk moving the shoring piece, even though you badly want to.

So for the "Shutdown" that's supposed to be SOOOOO "Critical", it is so much that that the Senate is on recess until Sept 29th and House comes back on Oct 1st. As usual, the people suffer, well, at least the government workers. They're kinda idiots anyway. Overall considering pay, not private sector comparison, they get quite a good amount of pay. If you can't fucking save enough money aside you're one of the people who live paycheck to paycheck, your job performance should be scrutinized.

This woman keeps on talking to me about what happens at her work and i dont care. You can brag all you want but I dont care! I have a lot of things here and it wont change the fact you are freeloading

My dad is a horrible fucking person like my mom left something plugged in so he started cursing and saying my little brother could electrocute himself but then he unplugged and hit my brother saying he doesnt care because when its my 5 year old little brother time to go its his time so he doesnt care

I'm so pissed at myself I used to put detail in my art and its all gone now, which means my art degraded! Woops!!! Sorry I'm not that same as I was when I was having an identity crisis. Trying to draw myself at 4 AM crying, because I didn't see myself anymore. Everytime I try to draw something now, nobody likes my art. Which means nobody likes me. I am so tired of this! I wish humans werent social creatures. This lonliness would feel so much more comfortable that way.

i think my boyfriend genuinely dislikes me and is only using me for sex :( everytime i bring up any mild complaint to him he gets extremely mad and twists it around, he always says he finds it hard to believe i care about him being negligent and rude towards me because i'm unemotional and dont do typical lovey dovey stuff like other girls do (result of past trauma)