What is something you wish you could say out loud?

Are HR people just lazy, stupid, or straight up don’t care? Had a phone interview with a company. Didn’t expect much, but at least I expected some kind of follow-up. Nope. Ghosted. They’re terrible at connecting people, and it’s literally their only job.

Why the hell do job recruiters blow smoke up your ass when THEY want you, but when you’re trying to reach them they’re ghosts? Like little horny teenagers desperate when they need something, but nowhere to be found after. I’ve called this lady three times, left two voicemails, sent an email. Nothing.

At work trying to be productive, but of course people gotta sit around playing Candy Crush instead of finishing the report. Then they act like they’re soooo busy. “Omg I’m swamped.” Fuck you. You’re not busy, you’re lazy.

ChatGPT is fucking garbage. I asked it for guitar string recommendations, and it told me to put 13s on my Epiphone hummingbird. I accidentally grabbed 12s. The only reason I followed it recommendations for 10s and 9s on electric is those are fairly standard. I don't bend as much as I'd like anyway. But 13s on a hummingbird? That's fucking retarded. Even more retarded than a fucking feminist somehow. Shits fucking impressive.

FUCKING HATE MY MOTHER SO MUCH SHE’S AN ABNOXIOUS CHILDISH MOTHERFUCKING HORROBLE PERSON THAT CAN’T STAND TO BE WRONG SHE PATHETIC STUPID IGNORANT SHALLOW AND A BITCH

lately it feels like everyone kinda gave up on me. like there was a secret vote and i lost. i’m still here anyway, piecing myself together with tape and coffee.

mini rant then nap. everybody’s childhood got dents. some of us polish them forever like it’ll change the shape. it won’t. car’s still dented. just drive it. not saying it didn’t hurt. just saying at some point you go forward.

i’m 36 and it feels like my mom just… doesn’t like me. she will bend over backwards for strangers and leave my texts dry. once she told me she tried to save for an abortion when she was pregnant with me but couldn’t get the money. who tells their kid that. i’ve got two kids now and i needed a mom and i didn’t have one. that’s the part i can’t get past.

i hate my “life,” or whatever you call this. i swing between empty and pissed. i don’t like my face, my choices, my spot on the ladder. i lie, i cheat little, i do dumb stuff and justify it after. i scroll women i’ll never touch and then hate myself for it. sometimes i want to burn it all down because mine already feels ash. i’m not proud. i’m just tired and close to snapping and that scares me.

Boy! Here's the summation of this rant wall:

"Boy! Women suck ,etc!"
Me: "How about going overseas to be treated right?"
"PREDATOR!! FEMINIST ALLY!!"

COMICAL!!! Yet still quite sad. I won't rehash all that's down in the text wall there spanning a couple rants or so. Just, life's too short to just do nothing and then get worse. The counters were valid as I spent like a few years researching and getting the nerve, but I did it and feel great! Always have all of your options ready.