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that fear is suffocating I love her fully recklessly but in the back of my mind theres always that gnawing doubt what if im not enough what if she strays I trust her yet somehow im still afraid love and fear tangled together and I dont know how to untie the knot

I'm done trying anymore try to do something nice and I'm beat down for it

Sneaking around on my twitter after I said I would never go on it again honestly in the heat of the moment it was the emotions talking

Not rlly a rant more of some sort of vent but erm I love love looove selfshipping I've done it since I first learned to draw but i'm less open to talking about doing it and about who I selfship with out of my own personal shame. Love to the yumeshipping/selfshipping community tho

when i was in high school i was friends with this guy, and i quickly fell in love with him. i was too afraid to tell him how i felt because i was scared of being rejected. we ended up going to the same college, and during our freshman year i finally told him how i felt even though he had a girlfriend. i just needed to get it off of my chest. he said i should have said something while we were in high school. after that night, we didn’t really talk again. he continued on with his life, but i’ve never really been able to move on. it’s been a year since we graduated and he lives in a different state, but he occupies my every thought. i just can’t seem to get past the “what if’s”. it also doesn’t help that i’ve never dated anyone so i haven’t had the chance to feel that way about someone new.

I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself.

"i need space" cool then stop showing up in my life

he only ever talked about himself and never really listened to anything i said no follow ups barely any acknowledgment if i didnt ask questions there would be no conversation just him rambling about his own life

when we hung out we just did whatever he wanted he full on practiced his hobbies in front of me while i sat there like an audience member wouldnt have minded if he cared even a little about my own interests but he didnt

thought maybe i was the problem maybe i just wasnt opening up enough but the more i shared the more i realized it was like talking to a wall no validation no engagement just silence or a half ass response

even driving with him was awful blasting music driving aggressively like i didnt exist couldnt even start a conversation over the noise didnt seem to care that i was literally gripping onto my seat
felt like i was just along for the ride he didnt care who was there as long as it was somebody

glad im not wasting any more time on that

windows 11 just will not let me live just downgraded to windows 10 and already getting popups begging me to go back leave me alone i made my choice FUCK YOU MICROSOFT

Why are nursing schools so hard to get in...I feel like a failure